Hello everyone! Long delay between posts this time, and for that I apologize. I've had a lot going on, and haven't really been feeling like myself lately. I went to the doctor two weeks ago due to some side effects of some medicine I'm on. We've switched it up, but I'm still feeling like a shell of my former self. I'm working on that with the help of some good folks that I have the pleasure of calling friends. Like I've said before, and keep hearing from everyone, this is is a process and it won't get fixed overnight. There are some things I need to work out on my own, but that's a post for another day. For now I want to dedicate this blog post to my awesome friends, family and everyone else who has reached out to me recently.
I feel like I keep saying the same stuff over and over, but it's true. I guess my friends and family mean that much to me. Everyone that has reached out to me recently via the phone, Facebook, Twitter, email, etc has been amazing. I've gone through my whole life trying to be the best possible person I can be, and I've failed at that miserably. I might be hard on myself most of the time, but I know that I could have done so much better with everything I've done up until now. I'm not saying that I regret anything, but I know I can be a much better friend, brother, son and all that other stuff I am.
I was raised to put others before myself and treat them the best way that I know how to. While I have tried to be as selfless as possible I know that I don't always put others before myself. I say this because the sermon at church this morning was talking about selflessness. It made me realize that while I might put others before myself most of the time I am selfish too. I need to work on this to become a better person in general.
I've gone through life helping people as much as I can and never expecting anything in return to those I help. That's the definition of a true friend, in my opinion. I try so much to help out whoever I can whenever I can, but I know that I am capable of so much more. I say all this because I've recently been experiencing this sensation I've been trying to help give out to everyone most of my life. I've had so many people reach out and offer support just by saying, "You know I'm here for you if you ever need me." That is one of the most selfless things anyone can say. I've reached out to a lot of people over the past few months and the responses I've gotten back have been uplifting, to say the least.
In all sincerity, I don't know what I'd do or where I'd be without this amazing outpouring of support in what seems like the darkest times of my life. This whole blogging thing was recommended to me by a few friends. It's become almost like a journal for me to get what's in my head out, for the world to see and read. I'm seriously amazed. It's as simple as just opening up and letting people who love you in to help. It's a shame that it's taken me almost 26 years to realize that. I've grown so much through this dark time, and I can take none of the credit. Friends are an awesome thing to have, and even through my hectic mood swings I know they'll be there for me, through it all. I've got an amazing support group, and I can only hope to return the plethora of support I've received through this whole ordeal.
It's getting better, and some days are better than others, but I've always been a firm believer in this saying: "You've got to have the bad days to truly appreciate the good." With all that being said the bad days are getting easier to bear because of my support group. The good are just that, good if not great. One day I'll be back to my normal self, but until then I'll just keep pushing forward and trying to be the best possible person I can be, while being a selfless friend who puts others in front of them. I hope everyone has a good week, and until next time;
Peace,
Hunter
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